It's been so long

Jesus fucking christ, It's been close to 3 months since I've updated this damn thing...

I meant to keep up with it better than that but somehow I am too busy with everything else going on in my life. No big surprise there. School and work. School and work. Everyday dude. It's a vicious cycle.

Geez, where do I start?

October 31st was a friend's birthday and halloween party. It was one of my biggest highlights of 2008, for sure. My Kitty Kat costume ruled the world. I love Halloween and it helps when everybody dresses up. Things are 10 times better and funner! Is that even a word?!?

November (from what I can remember) was a solid month. School fucking kicked me in the ass with those 3 papers. Thanksgiving was really good, as always. I ended up at a good friends house like I do every year because my family doesn't celebrate thanksgiving.

Ummm, December was half good half suck! Kat graduated from college, we threw a party! I'm so very proud of her. Jeremy came home from the army (her hubby). Lisa met Sean. I met Nick. Drue and John split. Hmm... I'm thinking of all the drama that you've missed out. Jesus, there was fucking nonsense going on in December.

New year's eve was spent at Jeanette's. Tons of people... tons of drunk people. It was fun. I didn't puke this year (like I did last year). Everybody had a good time.

January was a sad month. Kat and Jeremy moved to Kansas. I miss them very much. I started my Spring 2009 semester. Shit sucks so far. Classes are nothing but boring. Well for the most part. My sex class is completely awkward. My teacher is a 62 year old tall skinny african american man. He talks too much about his sex life... that appearntly no one wants to know about. BIG SURPRISE!!! Barf.

I don't know what it is this semester, I'm just not motivated enough. I keep focusing on other things. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'll get my shit together.

So I'm not going to Mexico or Miami for spring break because I HAVE A JOB! My best friends are going to Mexico and staying for a week, then the rest of my friends are driving down to Miami. I'm completely jealous. I can't get the dates off from work. Cool guys, thanks! But that's okay... I'll be taking the ENTIRE FUCKING WEEKEND OFF for my birthday cause we're going to a god damn lake house in South Carolina!

Why am I turning 22 this year? That is so unrealistic to me right now. I don't feel 22. I still feel 21, not even. Acutally I feel 18 years old. Nothing about myself has changed since I was 18. I think I matured too quickly for different reasons. Of course I look older, etc but 22 just seems... old? Yeah. When I was 18 and I thought about a 22-year-old, I imagined them looking grown up and old. I don't feel grown up at all. Am I always going to feel this way? I hope on my 50th birthday I still feel 18 years old.

I need Spring break so badly right now. I need a break from the real world. I'm not sure on how to get away from that.

I'm also looking forward to summer. I want my mom and granny to come to Bosnia with me in June. This is the trip I've been waiting for.

I have 4 more semesters left until I graduate. The last one being student-teaching, so technically 3 more semesters. Hallelujah!

I have been single for 15 months up until January (last month), and I can't say I'm happy. I was happy being single. Relationships are fucking hard. I can't seem to make it work. He is a shitty dude. It sucks it took me 2 months to realize. I always that every good guy is taken, it's totally true.


I'm going to a friends birthday celebration tonight. Laine is my date.