Yes, indeed I am on my period. It sucks but at least I know I'm not pregnant. Juuuust kidding. In order to get pregnant you must have sex, and I certainly have not been having sex. Dude, fuck sex, I'm not desperate enough to sleep with some random dude. That's always been weird to me. Like how some people can just get laid with a stranger because they wanted to fuck. First of all, sex with a stranger sounds disgusting, and how could it not be weird? I rather have sex with a friend.
Last night was the BIG Party. Oh my god, it was so much fun. So much madness going on it was insane. I took about 2579 photobooth pictures. Later on we turned the photobooth into a make-out booth. Stupid boys were shy. It didn't work well. The moonbounch was the shit. Eventhough it was huge, once there was 4 or more people inside, it would be complete chaos. I mean it almost flipped at one point and at another I had some dudes crotch in my FACE. At least he was somewhat cute, right? I danced until my feet almost fell off. They are hurting today :( We danced to Chris Brown's "Forevaaa" because it's such a fun song to dance to. Everybody butt-grinded, it was hilarious. Everybody came out, I was so happy to see people I haven't seen in months! It was a great turn out.
I don't feel hung-over this morning AT all. I feel really good. I had just the right amount of beer. I'm pretty sure I danced off the beers I had. Hell yeah.
It's beautiful outside today. I have to work on my Article first before I can think about going outside and hanging out. Kelso wants to go take pictures and I'm all for it. Maybe we'll go to the zoo. He's never been!
I went to the Town Center mall yesterday and applied at several different places. I made a good first-impression on the manager at The Limited and so now I have an interview on Thursday :) It's a fairly small clothing store. Their clothes are more professional but still cute. I also applied at Ambush. Dude, I'd love to work there but they are not hiring right now. Maybe they'll keep my application until they do hire.
I'm suppose to go home on Monday night for this Bosnian holiday but I seriously doubt I can. I have a shit ton of homework to do, papers to write, and not to mention gas is an issue. It's not only expensive but hard to find. I'm looking for it right now online and it's hard to tell if they still have the gas or not. God damn it, fuck the hurricanes and fuck our economy.
20080927
20080920
Study, study, study
Why am I not doing my homework right now? I don't understand. I know I will eventually start studying tonight but not right this second. I'm not motivated enough. I fucking hate homework and studying for an exam. I make the same damn grade whether I study or not... yet I continue my studying like it's a fucking chore.
I am always stuck in such weird and awkward situations with boys. Alright, so I have a boy friend (hence the space, he's a boy and he's just my friend). We've been friends for maybe 5 or more months now and we have become really close. He's fucking funny and I love him to death. He's all around a great friend. I care about him a lot. Well, I suppose he asked me out on a date last night... but I don't know if I took him seriously. We ended up watching a movie and baking cookies. It's what we usually do, or at least have done in the past so it didn't feel like a "date" or did we act any differently. I do really care for him and I think he's a great guy, I just don't know if I want anything more. I feel as if we're already past that stage, like it's almost too late to be more than just friends. But yet we tend to hold hands and cuddle, etc. We have not kissed although we've slept in the same bed twice. I know that sounds crazy to some people but I don't necessarily want to kiss him. Don't get me wrong, I would definitely kiss him but... I can't explain it. I like how we can just sleep together. It feels different. Every other guy I have slept in the same bed with, has tried at least something... whether it be sex, oral, etc. Fuck, this is such a long and complicated situation. I don't know what to think of it.
Do I really have time for a boyfriend? But then again I do really want someone in my life right now that can be more than a friend. Companionship is always a plus. This is giving me a headache.
On a whole other note, (yes I'm still talking about boys, sorry) I have this small, tiny, itty-bitty crush on a boy who has a girlfriend. Not to mention he has had this girlfriend for three years. Umm... what the fuck? Can't I just find a dude who isn't in a relationship, gay, weird, just a friend? Please god help me out here. Weird thing is, he talks to me... a lot. I don't know how I feel about it. I don't know how I would feel if I had a boyfriend of 3 years who talked to other girls randomly. Oh wait, my ex-boyfriend of 3 years did do that. Funny! Not funny, not funny at all. Really shitty. I wanted to kick him in the ballsack. Anyways, this guy is so nice, so sweet, so cute, and he likes photography. Dude, that's such a plus. You don't find that many guys who are interested in the same things as you are. So he is trying to get me to hang out with him sometime next week since this week I bailed. That's another long story.
It's ten o'clock at night. I need to get off this fucking computer and get my study on.
I'm going job hunting next week, or as soon as I can. My manager can kiss my ass. I love what I do but I hate my store manager. She has something to say to me everyday. Something to just piss me off, or make me have a terrible day. People like that should just go to hell. I'm gonna go apply to Ambush, that skate store. Maybe that sound super lame but I really don't have that many options. If I could only Substitute Mon-Fri and have my weekends off! That would be the life.
So my KSU re-admin status says "Fully Accepted" and for some reason I don't believe it. They don't even have my recent transcript what the hell? Aren't they going to need my grades from this semester as well? I absolutely hate transferring schools. Dear jesus I've done it three times now, this will be my fourth. I need to stay and graduate from KSU.
Kristen and I went to Audrey's babyshower today. It was a lot of fun. I kinda stuffed my face with all the free food. Hey what can I say? I was hungry and so were the other bitches there. Audrey received so many amazing presents. If I ever have a baby, I better have a badass babyshower. Shower me with gifts!!!
I could write about several more things but I've got to go study right this minute.
I am always stuck in such weird and awkward situations with boys. Alright, so I have a boy friend (hence the space, he's a boy and he's just my friend). We've been friends for maybe 5 or more months now and we have become really close. He's fucking funny and I love him to death. He's all around a great friend. I care about him a lot. Well, I suppose he asked me out on a date last night... but I don't know if I took him seriously. We ended up watching a movie and baking cookies. It's what we usually do, or at least have done in the past so it didn't feel like a "date" or did we act any differently. I do really care for him and I think he's a great guy, I just don't know if I want anything more. I feel as if we're already past that stage, like it's almost too late to be more than just friends. But yet we tend to hold hands and cuddle, etc. We have not kissed although we've slept in the same bed twice. I know that sounds crazy to some people but I don't necessarily want to kiss him. Don't get me wrong, I would definitely kiss him but... I can't explain it. I like how we can just sleep together. It feels different. Every other guy I have slept in the same bed with, has tried at least something... whether it be sex, oral, etc. Fuck, this is such a long and complicated situation. I don't know what to think of it.
Do I really have time for a boyfriend? But then again I do really want someone in my life right now that can be more than a friend. Companionship is always a plus. This is giving me a headache.
On a whole other note, (yes I'm still talking about boys, sorry) I have this small, tiny, itty-bitty crush on a boy who has a girlfriend. Not to mention he has had this girlfriend for three years. Umm... what the fuck? Can't I just find a dude who isn't in a relationship, gay, weird, just a friend? Please god help me out here. Weird thing is, he talks to me... a lot. I don't know how I feel about it. I don't know how I would feel if I had a boyfriend of 3 years who talked to other girls randomly. Oh wait, my ex-boyfriend of 3 years did do that. Funny! Not funny, not funny at all. Really shitty. I wanted to kick him in the ballsack. Anyways, this guy is so nice, so sweet, so cute, and he likes photography. Dude, that's such a plus. You don't find that many guys who are interested in the same things as you are. So he is trying to get me to hang out with him sometime next week since this week I bailed. That's another long story.
It's ten o'clock at night. I need to get off this fucking computer and get my study on.
I'm going job hunting next week, or as soon as I can. My manager can kiss my ass. I love what I do but I hate my store manager. She has something to say to me everyday. Something to just piss me off, or make me have a terrible day. People like that should just go to hell. I'm gonna go apply to Ambush, that skate store. Maybe that sound super lame but I really don't have that many options. If I could only Substitute Mon-Fri and have my weekends off! That would be the life.
So my KSU re-admin status says "Fully Accepted" and for some reason I don't believe it. They don't even have my recent transcript what the hell? Aren't they going to need my grades from this semester as well? I absolutely hate transferring schools. Dear jesus I've done it three times now, this will be my fourth. I need to stay and graduate from KSU.
Kristen and I went to Audrey's babyshower today. It was a lot of fun. I kinda stuffed my face with all the free food. Hey what can I say? I was hungry and so were the other bitches there. Audrey received so many amazing presents. If I ever have a baby, I better have a badass babyshower. Shower me with gifts!!!
I could write about several more things but I've got to go study right this minute.
20080908
What a day
I'm finally home. I am exhausted. It has been a very long day at school. I was literally falling asleep in my last class. Two hour long class was a big mistake. Never doing that again. Lesson learned.
I'm making a big cup of coffee right now. I feel like I could fall asleep at the keyboard... What the hell is wrong with me ?
It makes me sick to my stomach knowing how much I have to do for school in the next month or two. I've planned it all out, it's all marked in my planner. I can't be lazy this semester. I must work hard. Musn't I? Is that even a word? I just made it a word.
I had dinner with my friend Kelso tonight. We may go to florida at the end of this month. I would really love to go. I haven't been in three years. I just need to see the beach. Nothing is for sure yet. My plans for the beach were ruined this summer. It's hard to make plans with 8 other people. Now I don't care how many people go nor who is going.
My friends car was broken into the other night downtown. Big surprise right?! I fucking hate Atlanta so much. It's a shitty city with the shittiest people. His laptop and camping bag were stolen. Roughly estimated $3,000 were stolen from him. Makes me so angry. I know what it feels like. You feel violated. You feel helpess. And then you feel sick, literally you feel ill. I almost threw up when I was mugged. Don't get me wrong, Atlanta is a cool city and I like hanging out in Atlanta. But as far as living there goes, fuck that. I almost lost my life down there.
Let's talk about something else...
I'm voting for O'bama. Fuck McCain. He's an idiot and so is Palin. McCain is going to die in two years and Palin is a crazy person. I will not go into it right now but O'bama FOR CHANGE, that's all.
John's party was last Friday. I had a lot of fun. Met a ton of new people. Most of which were really cool, some of which were really stupid. Hey you get some, you lose some. I was very drunk so I probably seemed very stupid. It was my first time drinking in several months. I don't do it much, so that's why a couple of beers plus a shot got me wasted.
The Gwinnett County Fair opens this Thursday. My friend and I are going next week. It's kind of like a tradition that we all have to go. It's a lot of fun even though I get sick so easily on the rides. I love the swings and the only roller coaster there. It looks very unsafe and feels like you're going to fall out of your seat any second. We ride it anyway. I live life dangerously.
I'm off to watch The Hills. Fuck off, don't hate. It's my favorite show.
I'm making a big cup of coffee right now. I feel like I could fall asleep at the keyboard... What the hell is wrong with me ?
It makes me sick to my stomach knowing how much I have to do for school in the next month or two. I've planned it all out, it's all marked in my planner. I can't be lazy this semester. I must work hard. Musn't I? Is that even a word? I just made it a word.
I had dinner with my friend Kelso tonight. We may go to florida at the end of this month. I would really love to go. I haven't been in three years. I just need to see the beach. Nothing is for sure yet. My plans for the beach were ruined this summer. It's hard to make plans with 8 other people. Now I don't care how many people go nor who is going.
My friends car was broken into the other night downtown. Big surprise right?! I fucking hate Atlanta so much. It's a shitty city with the shittiest people. His laptop and camping bag were stolen. Roughly estimated $3,000 were stolen from him. Makes me so angry. I know what it feels like. You feel violated. You feel helpess. And then you feel sick, literally you feel ill. I almost threw up when I was mugged. Don't get me wrong, Atlanta is a cool city and I like hanging out in Atlanta. But as far as living there goes, fuck that. I almost lost my life down there.
Let's talk about something else...
I'm voting for O'bama. Fuck McCain. He's an idiot and so is Palin. McCain is going to die in two years and Palin is a crazy person. I will not go into it right now but O'bama FOR CHANGE, that's all.
John's party was last Friday. I had a lot of fun. Met a ton of new people. Most of which were really cool, some of which were really stupid. Hey you get some, you lose some. I was very drunk so I probably seemed very stupid. It was my first time drinking in several months. I don't do it much, so that's why a couple of beers plus a shot got me wasted.
The Gwinnett County Fair opens this Thursday. My friend and I are going next week. It's kind of like a tradition that we all have to go. It's a lot of fun even though I get sick so easily on the rides. I love the swings and the only roller coaster there. It looks very unsafe and feels like you're going to fall out of your seat any second. We ride it anyway. I live life dangerously.
I'm off to watch The Hills. Fuck off, don't hate. It's my favorite show.
20080904
My first blog
I can't believe how fast time is passing by. We are in the month of September, fall is coming very soon. It will only last for a month and then it will be freezing cold. I'm ready though. I'm ready for coats, jackets, sweaters, scarfs, hats, and gloves.
I worked today. It was a lot of fun. I'm in love with kids. I took this little boys picture. His name was Caleb and he was two years old. He was such a trip. He kept giving me High-Fives. He was attached to my leg. He smiled for me. It was great. His mother loved the pictures and that's always a good feeling.
The reason I have taken up this job again is because I do love it. I couldn't find a job out here in Kennesaw. I tried, and tried. But there is no way I am applying to serve food, or sell clothes, or any of that bullshit. If I hate my job, I'm sorry I can't work. I am very glad to be working with kids and photography again. I'm just not very excited about driving 20miles to work. I already commute to Georgia State and that's about 30miles from my apartment. I hate money. I hate gas.
School is kicking my ass right now. I have so many papers, projects, articles, bullshit work to do. Everything is due in the middle of October and November. How the hell are all my papers due on the 10th of November? Conclusion: I hate school. I can't wait to be done. Two more years, two more years.
I can't wait to teach. Especially teach Art. I would like to start at the Elementary level because I love young children. But eventually I would like to teach High School because I want to see the older kids create real art.
I've decided I am going to Graduate school. I know that's another two years on top of everything but it will be worth it in the end. I re-applied to Kennesaw State again and I didn't have to pay an admission fee. Thank you lord, thank you. I applied for Spring 2009. Let's all pray I get re-accepted. I know it's ridiculous to be applying to a school I've already attended but you never know where life will take you. I never thought I would be living in Kennesaw again, and well here I am. If I could go to KSU for the rest of my College years and Graduate school, I would be very happy. It will save me at least $50 per week in gas money. Wise decision right ? Right!
Our lovely friend Brad is back in town from Seattle. He has been gone for about a year. He joined the Army after med-school. I know that sounds crazy, but it was his decision. He is coming back to town tomorrow and leaving for Iraq the following week. We're all hanging out tomorrow night because I'm very sad about him having to be stationed in Iraq for a year. It's a scary thought.
I could ramble on forever but it's time for bed. Goodnight!
I worked today. It was a lot of fun. I'm in love with kids. I took this little boys picture. His name was Caleb and he was two years old. He was such a trip. He kept giving me High-Fives. He was attached to my leg. He smiled for me. It was great. His mother loved the pictures and that's always a good feeling.
The reason I have taken up this job again is because I do love it. I couldn't find a job out here in Kennesaw. I tried, and tried. But there is no way I am applying to serve food, or sell clothes, or any of that bullshit. If I hate my job, I'm sorry I can't work. I am very glad to be working with kids and photography again. I'm just not very excited about driving 20miles to work. I already commute to Georgia State and that's about 30miles from my apartment. I hate money. I hate gas.
School is kicking my ass right now. I have so many papers, projects, articles, bullshit work to do. Everything is due in the middle of October and November. How the hell are all my papers due on the 10th of November? Conclusion: I hate school. I can't wait to be done. Two more years, two more years.
I can't wait to teach. Especially teach Art. I would like to start at the Elementary level because I love young children. But eventually I would like to teach High School because I want to see the older kids create real art.
I've decided I am going to Graduate school. I know that's another two years on top of everything but it will be worth it in the end. I re-applied to Kennesaw State again and I didn't have to pay an admission fee. Thank you lord, thank you. I applied for Spring 2009. Let's all pray I get re-accepted. I know it's ridiculous to be applying to a school I've already attended but you never know where life will take you. I never thought I would be living in Kennesaw again, and well here I am. If I could go to KSU for the rest of my College years and Graduate school, I would be very happy. It will save me at least $50 per week in gas money. Wise decision right ? Right!
Our lovely friend Brad is back in town from Seattle. He has been gone for about a year. He joined the Army after med-school. I know that sounds crazy, but it was his decision. He is coming back to town tomorrow and leaving for Iraq the following week. We're all hanging out tomorrow night because I'm very sad about him having to be stationed in Iraq for a year. It's a scary thought.
I could ramble on forever but it's time for bed. Goodnight!
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